God is Good.

I am not saying this because I had a great day. I’m not saying this because I am blessed.

I am not saying this because I have much, I have enough for myself and my family.

I am not saying this because I’m still alive and God gave me another chance to live again.

I want to say that even though I do bad things, He is still there, not giving up to win me completely. God is that good because of his grace, I am saved. I want to seek His face, kiss His feet, and wrap myself in his arms. I want Him to tower me, shower me with His words. Be my God, King, and Refuge.

At the end of the day I always think of things like: “Another day has passed, did I make someone smile?” “How much goodness I shared this day?” “Do people I value still see me as someone worth to be with” and whatnots. I always contemplate the things that I have done; was it good? was it bad? Am I deserving to live my life? Because I personally think there are other people that are more deserving to be in my place right now. But then again, when I look at the brighter side, I must understand that this is what God gave me and He gave me this because I deserve this. Again, God is this good that even though you don’t deserve what you have right now, He will still give it to you no matter what, no matter how much.

PSALM 46

-cappuccinie

 

 

Christians and Christian Music

“I wanna ask where did we get the standard of what is considered real Christian music. Does genre matter? Lyrics? There are so many bands who proclaim and testify about how they have experienced God, yet, many Christians do not patronize them, instead, they see them as fake. shrugs Sorry for my bad english. Just a thought.”

This previous night I am searching Christian Rock music and I found out different metal and hard core and punk bands that proclaim God. In fact, I know and I love some. Flyleaf, Skillet, Red, P.O.D., Fireflight. But I have a question and I hope someone would answer. To what extent we must listen to these bands that scream and use heavy tuned instruments? I myself is a Christian and some of Christians I know do not listen to them. Where did we get the standard of what is considered real Christian Music? As far as I know, singing is from the heart and no one knows if you are singing for God, for people, or for yourself only.

I’m listening to Hillsong, Jesus Culture, Desperation Band, and other bands. Of course, they are mainstream in Christian Music Industry. I want to explore more. I want not just to be singing but feeling the highest intensity of worship.

–cappuccinie

I can feel you all around me

Song of the night. Ugh those days, I won’t really forget the time when my favorite band wan’t broke. I can feel you God all around me.

Soundcloud

 

I made a new cover. Deeply In Love by Hillsong. This is such an awesome song. You’ll thought at first that this song is written for lovers but it’s not. It’s for God. <3

 

 

–cappuccinie

Church

I love my church and the people inside it. I love the place that was assigned for us to worship, tho we can worship anywhere we want. I love the warm greeting, the smiles on their faces, the hands we lift up to praise God. I will surely miss everything about it. I don’t know where God will put me. I don’t know where I am assigned to. I just know that His will for me will be done. I don’t know how, when, where and why. I will surely miss and be missed.

–cappuccinie

Praise And Worship

There is only one thing I realized about being involved in this ministry. Being general is at it’s best. It is TOTAL SUBMISSION TO GOD. How can you sing when your heart is away from Him? How can you dance when your mind is occupying worldly deeds? How can the Holy Spirit be with you when not all your fellow members is being with God? I know what there would never be a perfect music ministry or troupe or band, but at least being with Almighty God, the closest.

Submission.. Based on the internet, it is ‘the quality or condition of being submissive to another’, ‘an act of submitting to the authority or control of another’, ‘the condition of being submissive, humble, or compliant’ and blah blah blah. I can say that they all convey one meaning. I am not really good in grammar. I lack words, but I can understand it’s meaning. Why? Because I feel it. I am slowly feeling it. I can relate to its meaning. Surrendering to God. Take control of my life God. Make me a prisoner in Your heart and You will be a prisoner in my heart as well, forever. Take my custody. I want to let go off worldly things… It is right to live according to Your word. It is enough that we are being happy about whatever we do, as long as our God is happy too. This is what submission means to me.

Back to the main topic. — Our Music Ministry, different faith are in each other. I don’t know how strong our faith is. I don’t know what are the sins committed by each other. We have normal misunderstandings. We treat each other like friends, but there are still failures in perception of  each other’s thoughts. We are not as perfect as others view us. It is hard to stand on the stage if we have a missing puzzle in our hearts. There is a very thin line between man and God but we cannot even go over that. He is so close and yet, we can’t get closer to Him.

I pray for our Music Team, well not only us but the Youth . There are invisible problems. Other people don’t notice it, we does. They think we are gather but we are scattered.

I don’t know how to end this realization I made, so, you guys! I surrender